silence

The old silence swallows me up
I think that you have already made it very clear
I understand why and I think I know it.

You will not miss me.
Perhaps I'm putting words in your mouth.
How dare I assume for you.
But I'm sure you won't miss me.

You say you will feel sad, I don’t believe you
I hope that he'll love you more compared to me
Only then will I force myself to leave
And make up a smile.

You want me to say it, it is very embarrassing
I can't say it, you wouldn't want to know
It would just hurt me, and i'll be a fool.
Silence makes it better.

I really don't want to leave.

Why do I still have to use this subtle smile to carry across?
It's too embarassing
You won’t need to worry too much
You never did seem to worry much.

I will constantly live well
As I have for the decades back.
You have already left far away.
I will also slowly walk away.

It's too embarassing...
To bring respite to the burden of my emotions
I will learn to give you up
It is because I love you too much