Past's Future

Background:
You probably have felt it before:
When you were in class
and the teacher asked you a question,
and you found the answer but
was afraid to answer.
Or even worse,
when you knew the answer and
you were raising your hand
and the teacher didn't call you.
But the worst thing is:
when you had the answer and
you raised your hand up first
and the teacher called on
the other person
instead.

Stage 1:
Or maybe another instance:
when you're classmates
with this person you like but
you only saw him/her at least twice a week,
you missed all the chances to tell him/her
in the beginning
(when you had all the chances)
but still
when you saw him/her at least more than
twice a week,
you were with him/her
(and you were alone)
but still
you couldn't tell her.

Stage 2:
The current condition of which
there is this sensation:
no pain
a tingling sensation
like an urge of some sort
a want, a desire, a cry, a howl, a yearning
a foolish romantic
who's unsung and
unjustified.

Stage 3:
You find yourself in a total loss,
outperformed, outpaced, outlasted, outplayed, outwitted.
Then you fall into the pits of sadness.
Unable to tell him/her the answer
leaves you in a state of calamity,
a severe drought or a flood, a typhoon,
stagnant and full of
regret.

Stage 4:
You no longer wish for sorrow,
and find much brighter things to look at
like tomorrow.
You forget him/her as well as
the answer.
Moving on
and trying to escape Stage 1.